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I have been horrible at updating this thing lately! Has it really been a whole month since I've last blogged? Yep, look at that. One whole month. A whole lot has happened too. A whole lot of GOOD stuff.

First thing.
Pepe has slowly been dying the death. For those of you who are completely lost at the mention of Pepe, that would be my beloved little honda. I don't know if I should jump for joy or be a little sad that the poor thing has pretty much given up on me. I always wanted a new car (which btdubs car shopping=pain in the rear!), but I've driven the car for 4 years...I'm kind of attached to the thing. Bleh. Highlight on this one though is I'm looking at a car that I've wanted since I was like 12. BOO-YAH! 2010 Silver Jetta? YES, PLEASE!

Second thing.
I met a boy. Go a head let your jaws drop now. I know, I know I wasn't looking for anyone, but it's a little hard to not look at a super attractive guy who you see almost everyday. He is so amazing. I'm extremely lucky to have him in my life. He treats me like a princess and is more than I deserve. Lucky doesn't cover it. I<3 him.

Third thing.
There's a chance I might get a new job. After almost four years in the same department (actually it's been 44 months, but who's counting) it's time for a change. I posted out for 3 positions on the bank side of Discover and 1 sticking to CSE. Cross your fingers, cause it's time for a change.

I guess that's really all that has happened in the whirlwind month of not blogging. I know some of you want more details about one of the wonderful things that made my list, but I'm going to be a little selfish and not share any more details...maybe later :)

Uh-flipping-mazing!

Yeah. It was that great.



If only...

Blogging at three am? Why not?

I'm super tired, but hyped at the same time. Don't ask how that works because I'm not really sure.

It's been almost a month since I've blogged. A lot has happened. Ok, so not a lot, but it feels like a lot.

Ah. Anyway ever feel like whenever you talk no one listens? I've had that feeling for over a month now

I can't shake it.

I also feel like how I feel doesn't really matter to those around me at all. Also something I've felt

like for over a month.

Seriously what is wrong with me?

I know, I know only I can control how I feel, but sometimes I don't want that to be the answer.

Sometimes I wish people would at least try to pretend (yeah, I'd take pretending for now) to hear

what I'm saying.

Apparently I'm in a funk.

Hopefully I shake it soon.

I'm on this musical kick at the moment. I love listening to them. Surprisingly I always find

a song that I feel like I relate to so much. Right now it's 'If Only' from the The Little Mermaid.

It's a wonderful song. I love it. I feel like it really just kind of explains how I feel about everything.

'Can't you see the way I ache behind my smile?'

Positive note: HARRY POTTER IN SIX DAYS!

5,4,3,2,1 bang bang bang boy...

I've failed at blogging for the past few weeks.

So much has happened.

I don't even know where to start.

Oh, here's where did you all know that there's a pickle factory on the death star?

The things you learn during improv.

:)

Sigma, one of the biggest blessings in my life is now no more.

I feel really sad about it.

I'm going to miss going and having the interaction with the girls...ok and the guys.

Sigma was a HUGE blessing and came when I needed it most. I'll be grateful for the year I spent in Sigma getting to know the girls and building friendships with everyone.

I've met some of my best friends through it.

I don't think I'd be where I am without Sigma.

<3

So.

Friday I (hopefully) get to spend time with someone who I have

complicated feelings for.

How it can be complicated I don't even know.

It should be black or white.

Either I like him or don't.

Eh. I make everything overly complicated.

It shouldn't be complicated.

We're supposedly (yes, I say supposedly because I have very little faith in the male gender) hanging out

on Friday. For some reason there's a part of me that thinks it won't happen.

Don't ask. I don't know why. It's just like a nagging thing in the back of my mind.

Hopefully it happens. Maybe it will make how I feel less complicated.

I like him, but then I don't see how it could work.

Bleh.

Is having feelings for someone always so hard?

On a positive note only 31 more days until Harry Potter!

Midnight showing?

I think yes.

I'm fully aware this is for the wrong movie, but

Rupert Grint gets better looking with every

movie.

:)

Day 6: Favorite superhero and why

Batman.

He is the man.

How could not love Batman?

Honestly, I think I love him more because Christian Bale

played him, but whatevs. Batman is hot.

His sidekick is a little cute too. :)

Batman is my favorite because I used to watch these cartoons when I was little before I went to school

and let's face it his theme song kicks spidermans theme song in the teeth. Does whatever a

spider can? Puh-lease.

Go Batman.



Day 5: A picture of somewhere you've been

Disneyland.

The happiest place on Earth.

I love Disneyland. Love it.

It makes me happy to be there.

There were other pictures, but it seem like this one was the best choice.

Day 4: A habit you have that you wished you didn't

It took my a while to figure out what it is about myself that I wish I could change. I ran through just about everything and finally settled on one thing. I over think EVERYTHING. It's ridiculous. One small thing suddenly becomes some terrible thing. It's an awful habit. I'm trying to so hard to change it, but sadly it's coming along slowly. Over thinking things gets you no where in life and can give you some serious heart burn (I know this from experience!). It's just silly to work yourself up thinking about all the things that could happen. Nothing good comes from it. Slowly, but surely change is coming. This habit hopefully will be kicked by the end of the year. Yay for me.