Stressed...

Stress is like the number one thing that comes with the end of the semester. I've put off a paper for an entire semester. Stupid move? Heck yeah! I hate being that person who is freaking out at the end of the semester because I've put important assignments off. Bah. Oh well I'm almost done with it so it shouldn't be that bad and once I turn it in...I'M DONE! Yes, that's right my semester will be over. Thank goodness! I've decided not to go to school this summer, even though it will get me closer to graduating I can't bring myself to sit in class again for the summer when I could be out doing all sorts of fun things with my friends. It's going to take a little longer to get my degree, but I'll be sane by the time I get it.

Also along the lines of school, I'm changing my major once again, but this time it feels like something that will make me happy. Early Childhood Education. Yeah that's right I want to teach pre-school or kindergarten. It's going to be so much fun. I hung around in one of my best friend's classrooms the other day and had a blast with the kids. I think that line of work for me would be extremely rewarding. On the plus side, it would work for later down the road when I actually have kids in school myself.

Anyway the besties and I have had an awesome week! I must say these girls are amazing and I'm blessed to have them in my life. The week started off with Sigmars (sadly the last sigma activity for the semester). That was a lot of fun. I was voted most likely to start a Gordon Hayward fan club. These girls know me so well. granted I may or may not have yelled "Gordon Hayward, I love you!" at a jazz game, but hey I only speak the truth. haha After the Sigmars Jes and I went back to hang out with Katie and Heather, who were house sitting for their boss. We had a random dance party to LND and some other junk in the basement. Then we decided to have a hot tub party with some of the great guys that we know. The hot tub party was really fun. I got to sit and talk to some people that I haven't actually taken the time to get to know and let me tell you one of them is pretty dang amazing. I must say I think I'm in like.  Seriously though this boy is a total sweetheart and he's just great to talk too. Now to stop being shy and actually like ask for his number or something. yeah this is a blog so I get to talk big...we all know I'm waaaayyyy too shy to just straight up ask for his stinking number. We'll see how that turns out though. Anything can happen, as Jes would say, positive vibes to the universe...so don't fail me now.

So between school and trying to get over the whole shy thing...I'm a little stressed which makes me a little crazy. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks when it's just trying to get up the nerve to ask this boy out. Stay tuned.

Do you hear that love they're playing our song?

Uh I really wish at this moment in time I was graduating from school once and for all. I'm really sick of school. I lack motivation this semester. I have zero motivation to go to class and even do my homework. Bad I know. Oh well I guess it will be over soon enough.


Have you ever had that one person who just understands you sometimes better than you understand yourself? It's a little scary at times. Granted I always thought it would be the person I was going to share my life with. Not a friend. Now that it's happened this way though I have to admit I'm grateful for having someone that just understands and never passes judgement. You should know who you are, so Thanks.


Have you ever met someone who's voice sounds like nails on a chalkboard? Ha. I know plenty of those people, but none measure up to one person in particular. This person drives me bonkers with the way they talk to other people around them or maybe it's the constant need for attention that bothers me. I don't know maybe I'm just at a point in my life where I can only take people who are a little still stuck in high school in small doses. Trust me I tried the mature thing and looked for positive things this person does or qualities they posses...I can not find any. So I'm trying another tactic. Staying far away from this individual and biting my tongue...yeah we'll see how long that lasts.....I'll keep you informed.


Anyway I was sitting in class (independent study. Best. Class. Ever) and this song came up on pandora. I've heard it before, but I love it and think it's adorable. So here it is...enjoy!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8TjqNinbn0. Yeah I know it's just a link, but LISTEN. It's such a cute song!

Disney Movies

Sometimes I wish life was like a Disney movie. Go ahead judge here. If life were like a Disney movie there would be a lot more singing...I think I could handle that.

Warning this post is more of a rant then anything else so if you would like to stop reading feel free. If you keep reading though, don't say I didn't warn you.

School:

    That seems to be the number one thing that I love to rant about maybe because I'm so sick of it. I'm tired of being asked all the time if my major is real. "If my major isn't real, why is there a WHOLE department devoted to it?" I believe those were the last freak out words I used on some unexpectant soul. His reposense? "Who knew red heads could be so mean!" Oops. I guess I'm just a little touchy sometimes about my major. Let's get a few things out of the way though.

1. I enjoy my major classes.
2. Yes, I still am not sure what in the world I'm going to do with it besides tell you why you do certain things.
3. Again, I'm aware I can't make a whole lot of money doing it.


Sigma:

   I haven't really said anything about Sigma lately...it's still is great, but of course like all things it has moments where I'm really confused about what just happened or I don't even know why I show up sometimes.
Part of the reason I don't enjoy going is I hear some of the things the girls talk about and I just want to scream. It's like high school all over again. I don't need a sequel to my high school years, but thanks for asking. Maybe I need to learn to be a tad more tolerant of people's personalities...heaven knows I've had my fair share of people who didn't appreciate mine. Ah...sometimes it's just really hard....oh well...I guess I've just got to learn to suck it up.

Church:

    I'm sure you all are wondering "what could she possibly have to say about church?" Well let me enlighten you. I love going to church. Love it. I don't always love the people though. I've lost track of how many times I've been asked if I was planning on getting married anytime soon. Yeah, let me jump on that because I have sooo many options I just have to pick one. Syke! Seriously I'm 22 I have PLENTY of time to get married, but I guess because I wasn't eager to get married when I was 18 being 22 and unmarried makes me a spinster? Eh whatever. The church is true...sometimes though the people are a little weird.


Sometimes things happen in my life where I just sit at the pothole I tripped over and wonder why it was placed in my path. The latest pothole (granted it's only been a day) I think I'm going to be stuck on for a little while. This one was big, big enough to twist my ankle, hit my head and then forget which way was up. I know I'll get over it, but right now it's a little too raw and I have some many things running through my head that I don't know if I'd be able to get them out and actually make it make any sense. Who knows I'll figure it out eventually, but for right now I just want to be mad/hurt.


I didn't sleep like at all last night so if this make no sense at least you know it's due to lack of sleep.

Why yes Professor I am paying attention....

Well sort of. :) I tend to only do this when I'm extremely bored or just can't focus in class. Today is one of those days. I can not get my brain to wrap around some of the ideas (crazy ideas) my professor is discussing. Needless to say I tuned out and started doing this.

Life sure has been crazy lately, but a good crazy. The besties and I have been discussing some things that would change our lives. Haha nothing dramatic, although I totally made it sound that way. Oops!
We've been talking about moving out for a little while and now we've made it our goal to have an apartment by the end of the year. It's exciting to take some steps toward being on my own, but at the same time it's a little scary. It will be good though...I couldn't ask for better people to room with.

Conference weekend has come and gone. I must say I love conference so much! I had a lot of things that I was trying to come to terms with or find the answers to and every single thing was hit during conference. Those men and women are truly inspired. My favorite talk though was from Elder Scott. I love to hear that man talk about his wife. It's so sweet that you can still see just how much he loves her still. I know everyone gets tired of the marriage talks, but his was one of the best. I may or may not have started tearing up when he said that even if we feel like things are not possible...all things are possible through our Father in Heaven. I just loved his talk so much. I feel a lot better after conference and like I'm ready to face whatever life has in store for me with the sure knowlegde that I am a daughter of God and He loves me.

I must admit it's times like this though when I really miss one of my dear friends who is serving a mission. I miss just having random conversations and sometimes very serious conversations. Although with her letters she still makes me see things that I haven't even thought of and I find a lot of strength in her letters. I'm extremely grateful for those. They always seem to come at the right times, even though you can't see this for a while thanks Jess.

Well that was an hour and half well spent. Class is over now. YAY!