Awkward moments define my life

Seriously, it's true. Awkward moments really do define my life. The other day I was sitting at a stop light and this dude was sitting in his car totally jamming out, so being the creeper that I am, I sat and watched him jam out. He had some amazing steering wheel drum skills and a wonderful air guitar going as far as the singing goes I can't grade that since it was like negative nine degrees outside and my windows were up. Well he totally caught me staring and started singing to me using his smart water as a microphone. He wasn't feeling awkward, but I sure did. I very quickly turned bright red and then turned back to stare out my wind shield. Yeah, I'll never stare at anyone playing air guitar again.

Anyway life is still pretty fantastic! I must say this is my favorite time of year! All the lights and something about this time of year that just makes dealing with people so much easier. Love it! I can't wait to go see the lights at Temple Square and Zoo lights! Woo for Christmas!

Can I just say that I hate anything that deals with cars because it's so complicated! It seems like every time I turn on my car a new light comes up! Grrr. I have to go to Jiffy Lube tomorrow and I'm so dreading that. Oh well I'lll put my big girl pants on and handle it! Wish me luck!

You make my heart stop...

AH! Five months of not blogging? I guess life got a little crazy. Guess it's time for an update, yeah?

First:
Remember the boy you all learned about? Well he is no more. After a lot of thought and a lot of time on my knees asking for guidance from my Father in Heaven, I decide the best thing for both of us was to end the relationship and go our separate ways. It was hard, but I'm happy and very confident I made the right decision.

Second:
I have the BEST calling in the whole wide world. I teach 5 year olds all about Jesus and the Gospel. Can it get much better than that? I submit that it can not! I love it so much! I even team teach with the BEST person ever as well.

Third:
I finally feel like I know that I'm on the right track and everything is going to be ok. I have the most wonderful support system in my family and friends that a girl could ever ask for. They are all very special to me. Sorry I lost sight of what was important, but now I know and won't ever lose sight of it again. I love you all!

Fourth:
Ever had someone that you enjoy talking to so much that your phone tends to be glued to your hand 24/7? Yeah, I've never done that....until now. BAH! I feel really silly at the moment. Mostly because I'm twenty-two and I feel like a little girl who's just developed her first crush. Oh goodness...what have I gotten myself into?! That's right I'm apparently a tad twitter patted. So twitter patted that the same song has been on repeat ALL day and I've had the dorkiest grin on my face all day as well. Oh well, he's pretty great.

Fifth:
I'm starting school again! Can I just say that I am not looking forward to having homework again? (that means less time to talk to said boy!) It's an English class I'm taking online so that means more time in my silly glasses. Oh well, it had to happen at one point in time. We'll see how it goes. Brit Lit here I come.

Well that's all the updates for now. Night blogger world.

bbbbblllllllaaaaahhhhhhhh

I have been horrible at updating this thing lately! Has it really been a whole month since I've last blogged? Yep, look at that. One whole month. A whole lot has happened too. A whole lot of GOOD stuff.

First thing.
Pepe has slowly been dying the death. For those of you who are completely lost at the mention of Pepe, that would be my beloved little honda. I don't know if I should jump for joy or be a little sad that the poor thing has pretty much given up on me. I always wanted a new car (which btdubs car shopping=pain in the rear!), but I've driven the car for 4 years...I'm kind of attached to the thing. Bleh. Highlight on this one though is I'm looking at a car that I've wanted since I was like 12. BOO-YAH! 2010 Silver Jetta? YES, PLEASE!

Second thing.
I met a boy. Go a head let your jaws drop now. I know, I know I wasn't looking for anyone, but it's a little hard to not look at a super attractive guy who you see almost everyday. He is so amazing. I'm extremely lucky to have him in my life. He treats me like a princess and is more than I deserve. Lucky doesn't cover it. I<3 him.

Third thing.
There's a chance I might get a new job. After almost four years in the same department (actually it's been 44 months, but who's counting) it's time for a change. I posted out for 3 positions on the bank side of Discover and 1 sticking to CSE. Cross your fingers, cause it's time for a change.

I guess that's really all that has happened in the whirlwind month of not blogging. I know some of you want more details about one of the wonderful things that made my list, but I'm going to be a little selfish and not share any more details...maybe later :)

Uh-flipping-mazing!

Yeah. It was that great.



If only...

Blogging at three am? Why not?

I'm super tired, but hyped at the same time. Don't ask how that works because I'm not really sure.

It's been almost a month since I've blogged. A lot has happened. Ok, so not a lot, but it feels like a lot.

Ah. Anyway ever feel like whenever you talk no one listens? I've had that feeling for over a month now

I can't shake it.

I also feel like how I feel doesn't really matter to those around me at all. Also something I've felt

like for over a month.

Seriously what is wrong with me?

I know, I know only I can control how I feel, but sometimes I don't want that to be the answer.

Sometimes I wish people would at least try to pretend (yeah, I'd take pretending for now) to hear

what I'm saying.

Apparently I'm in a funk.

Hopefully I shake it soon.

I'm on this musical kick at the moment. I love listening to them. Surprisingly I always find

a song that I feel like I relate to so much. Right now it's 'If Only' from the The Little Mermaid.

It's a wonderful song. I love it. I feel like it really just kind of explains how I feel about everything.

'Can't you see the way I ache behind my smile?'

Positive note: HARRY POTTER IN SIX DAYS!

5,4,3,2,1 bang bang bang boy...

I've failed at blogging for the past few weeks.

So much has happened.

I don't even know where to start.

Oh, here's where did you all know that there's a pickle factory on the death star?

The things you learn during improv.

:)

Sigma, one of the biggest blessings in my life is now no more.

I feel really sad about it.

I'm going to miss going and having the interaction with the girls...ok and the guys.

Sigma was a HUGE blessing and came when I needed it most. I'll be grateful for the year I spent in Sigma getting to know the girls and building friendships with everyone.

I've met some of my best friends through it.

I don't think I'd be where I am without Sigma.

<3

So.

Friday I (hopefully) get to spend time with someone who I have

complicated feelings for.

How it can be complicated I don't even know.

It should be black or white.

Either I like him or don't.

Eh. I make everything overly complicated.

It shouldn't be complicated.

We're supposedly (yes, I say supposedly because I have very little faith in the male gender) hanging out

on Friday. For some reason there's a part of me that thinks it won't happen.

Don't ask. I don't know why. It's just like a nagging thing in the back of my mind.

Hopefully it happens. Maybe it will make how I feel less complicated.

I like him, but then I don't see how it could work.

Bleh.

Is having feelings for someone always so hard?

On a positive note only 31 more days until Harry Potter!

Midnight showing?

I think yes.

I'm fully aware this is for the wrong movie, but

Rupert Grint gets better looking with every

movie.

:)

Day 6: Favorite superhero and why

Batman.

He is the man.

How could not love Batman?

Honestly, I think I love him more because Christian Bale

played him, but whatevs. Batman is hot.

His sidekick is a little cute too. :)

Batman is my favorite because I used to watch these cartoons when I was little before I went to school

and let's face it his theme song kicks spidermans theme song in the teeth. Does whatever a

spider can? Puh-lease.

Go Batman.



Day 5: A picture of somewhere you've been

Disneyland.

The happiest place on Earth.

I love Disneyland. Love it.

It makes me happy to be there.

There were other pictures, but it seem like this one was the best choice.

Day 4: A habit you have that you wished you didn't

It took my a while to figure out what it is about myself that I wish I could change. I ran through just about everything and finally settled on one thing. I over think EVERYTHING. It's ridiculous. One small thing suddenly becomes some terrible thing. It's an awful habit. I'm trying to so hard to change it, but sadly it's coming along slowly. Over thinking things gets you no where in life and can give you some serious heart burn (I know this from experience!). It's just silly to work yourself up thinking about all the things that could happen. Nothing good comes from it. Slowly, but surely change is coming. This habit hopefully will be kicked by the end of the year. Yay for me.

Day 3: A picture of you and your friends

Sigma. Of course! I don't know where I would be in my life without some of these girls! I love them all. They are an amazing group of girls. I'm really lucky to have such an awesome sorority.

Have we covered the topic of me being a wimp yet? Oh man. There's something I want to do so bad, but sadly I lack the courage, nerve whatever you want to call it to do it. Yeah, I'm a chicken. Who knows though maybe one day I'll stop thinking about what could happen and just do it. Bleh. It's waaaaaayyyy too late to over analyze things. Boo. Goodnight blogger world!

Day 2: The meaning behind your blog name.

It really does not take a genius to figure it out.

1. I'm a redhead.
2. I ramble.


Today was the day! I saw someone who means a lot to me and yeah after two years...I'm still ridiculously awkward. Good to know nothing has changed since, well, high school. The boy makes me nervous. Really nervous. Don't ask why, maybe it has something to do with the fact that there was a point in time where he knew just about everything about me and well I have a major crush on him. Yeah that might have something to do with it. Meh. I'm awkward guess I should just embrace it rather than fight it.
In case you were wondering though...he looked really good. ;)

Day 1: Recent picture of yourself and 15 random facts

Facts:

1. I'm terrified of the dark.
2. I've changed my major six times.
3. I've never dyed my hair.
4. I have a love/hate relationship with my cell phone.
5. I love football. A lot.
6. I love going to the zoo.
7. I love flip flops.
8. I hate sleeping in socks.
9. I have a habit of forgetting what I'm talking about.
10. I love to watch disney movies.
11. I love to take pictures, but hate having my picture taken.
12. I am not a morning person.
13. This year I've been through three phones already.
14. I love Harry Potter. Judge away.
15. Is a secret. If you're lucky I might tell you.

30 Days

I found this again:

Day 1: Recent picture of you and 15 random facts about yourself
Day 2: The meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: A picture of you and your friends
Day 4: A habit you have that you wished you didn't
Day 5: A picture of somewhere you've been
Day 6: Favorite superhero and why
Day 7: A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you
Day 8: Short term goals for this month and why
Day 9: Something you're proud of in the past few days
Day 10: Songs you listen to when you're sad, happy, mad, hyped up, bored
Day 11: Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12: How you found out about blogger and why you have one
Day 13: A letter to someone
Day 14: A picture of you and your family
Day 15: Put your ipod on shuffle-first 10 songs that play
Day 16: Another picture of yourself
Day 17: Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18: Plans/Dreams/Goals that you have
Day 19: Nicknames you have and why you have them
Day 20: Someone you love
Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22: What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23: Something you crave a lot
Day 24: Your last five facebook status'
Days 25: What I would find in your bag
Day 26: What you think about your friends
Day 27: Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28: A picture of you last year and one from today, how have you changed since then
Day 29: In the past month what have you learned
Day 30: Your favorite song

and I decided what the heck.

...I will make sure to keep my distance....

For the first time in two years I'm not going to school for the summer. I feel like such a slacker. Oh well, I deserve a break every once in a while right?  Eh. School is just one of those things that sadly seems like it's going to be a part of my life forever. Bleh. Whatevs, it's (almost) summer so 'nuff said about school.

I've ever so slowly become addicted to a Christina Perri song. Distance. Yes, I'm currently listening to it while I blog. Best. Song. Ever. Ok, maybe it's the whole album that I'm in love with, but this song is just amazing. Twenty-five times it's played (so far) on itunes...yeah it's a keeper.

Anyway can I just say that technology and I are not friends. At all. I've managed to completely break my old laptop so who knows how in the world I'll get all the pictures and music (which I must say is the most important!) off of the stupid thing. It won't even turn on. Bleh it's been like a month since I've put new music on my ipod, that might not even seem like a big deal to some people, but that is kind of how I get through my work day. Whatevs. At least the new laptop works.

Now for a little bit of a rant. Hey at least I warned you before just jumping right into it right?

Anyway lately I've been feeling extremely frustrated with how things in my life have turned out. Don't get me wrong I do have a lot to be extremely grateful for, but in some situations I can't help it. I get frustrated with people or things that happen and I can slowly feel myself withdraw from them. I'm not the type of person who is really great at expressing how they feel. So I stole a quote off of a dear friends blog that I think totally sums up how I am a lot of the time.

"Have you ever been angry or sad, to the point where you just break down at home in your room? Your parents don't know because you keep the tears to yourself, and you cry silently. Your friends don't know because you talk as if you're fine. Well you're not fine, and you know it. No one really knows how you feel, and they have their own lives to deal with, so you don't bother telling them. You

bottle it up, and store it with the other problems or troubles"

Lately I feel like a lot of things are just getting stored on the shelf. I guess you say something on the list of things to accomplish this year is to finally master a way to express myself. Cross your fingers. We'll see how well that pans out for me.

 

Lucky for me though I have amazing friends, who just seem to understand me even when I'm being incredibly complicated and really dumb.

 

 

 

You know who are. Thanks.

<3

 

 

Can I just say that Sunday I'm going to see someone I haven't seen in a very long time. I'm slightly nervous because me+awkward situations=nothing good.

Also, part of the problem may be that I feel so awkward because this person means a great deal to me.

Boo.

 

Counting.....

In case you all have failed to check your calendars recently it's May!!!!!! Thank goodness! Yes I have been waiting for May to decide to roll around since September. Why you ask? Someone comes home this month. In three days to be exact and when you're counting down for something have you ever noticed that the days seem to drag on and on? I think this is why I try really hard not to count down to things, but this event is kind of important because this person is amazing....really amazing. :)

That's really all I have to say right now because it's all I can think about! Yeah, I'm just a little giddy about it.  

So one of my darling friends wanted to blog too....here's what she had to say: 


Dear Kelcey's followers,
This is Jesika May, one of Kelcey's besties and I am here to inform you all of something. It's something you may like to call "love" but i call it when a person finds someone who is equally as weird as them and they fall in a mutual weirdness-step together. It's a crazy, a love virus that infects the world. Yes, its a good virus...for some... and sometimes... but sometimes the symptoms before the goodness, we want to avoid at all costs. That's how we feel today. Yep! Oh the rambles. I could go on, on, on, and on some more but Kelc is getting impatient. Also, you don't drop the y in her name and add an IE when you make it plural or possesive. Just a little fyi for the blogging world. Anyways, peace! If you have your mutual weirdness liking partner, fabulous! If not, good luck in finding them!

Peace, love, and happiness,
Jesika May

P.S don't drink a lot of red bull. it can make you sick. very sick. ask kelc. she can tell you all, ALL, all about it!

Stressed...

Stress is like the number one thing that comes with the end of the semester. I've put off a paper for an entire semester. Stupid move? Heck yeah! I hate being that person who is freaking out at the end of the semester because I've put important assignments off. Bah. Oh well I'm almost done with it so it shouldn't be that bad and once I turn it in...I'M DONE! Yes, that's right my semester will be over. Thank goodness! I've decided not to go to school this summer, even though it will get me closer to graduating I can't bring myself to sit in class again for the summer when I could be out doing all sorts of fun things with my friends. It's going to take a little longer to get my degree, but I'll be sane by the time I get it.

Also along the lines of school, I'm changing my major once again, but this time it feels like something that will make me happy. Early Childhood Education. Yeah that's right I want to teach pre-school or kindergarten. It's going to be so much fun. I hung around in one of my best friend's classrooms the other day and had a blast with the kids. I think that line of work for me would be extremely rewarding. On the plus side, it would work for later down the road when I actually have kids in school myself.

Anyway the besties and I have had an awesome week! I must say these girls are amazing and I'm blessed to have them in my life. The week started off with Sigmars (sadly the last sigma activity for the semester). That was a lot of fun. I was voted most likely to start a Gordon Hayward fan club. These girls know me so well. granted I may or may not have yelled "Gordon Hayward, I love you!" at a jazz game, but hey I only speak the truth. haha After the Sigmars Jes and I went back to hang out with Katie and Heather, who were house sitting for their boss. We had a random dance party to LND and some other junk in the basement. Then we decided to have a hot tub party with some of the great guys that we know. The hot tub party was really fun. I got to sit and talk to some people that I haven't actually taken the time to get to know and let me tell you one of them is pretty dang amazing. I must say I think I'm in like.  Seriously though this boy is a total sweetheart and he's just great to talk too. Now to stop being shy and actually like ask for his number or something. yeah this is a blog so I get to talk big...we all know I'm waaaayyyy too shy to just straight up ask for his stinking number. We'll see how that turns out though. Anything can happen, as Jes would say, positive vibes to the universe...so don't fail me now.

So between school and trying to get over the whole shy thing...I'm a little stressed which makes me a little crazy. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks when it's just trying to get up the nerve to ask this boy out. Stay tuned.

Do you hear that love they're playing our song?

Uh I really wish at this moment in time I was graduating from school once and for all. I'm really sick of school. I lack motivation this semester. I have zero motivation to go to class and even do my homework. Bad I know. Oh well I guess it will be over soon enough.


Have you ever had that one person who just understands you sometimes better than you understand yourself? It's a little scary at times. Granted I always thought it would be the person I was going to share my life with. Not a friend. Now that it's happened this way though I have to admit I'm grateful for having someone that just understands and never passes judgement. You should know who you are, so Thanks.


Have you ever met someone who's voice sounds like nails on a chalkboard? Ha. I know plenty of those people, but none measure up to one person in particular. This person drives me bonkers with the way they talk to other people around them or maybe it's the constant need for attention that bothers me. I don't know maybe I'm just at a point in my life where I can only take people who are a little still stuck in high school in small doses. Trust me I tried the mature thing and looked for positive things this person does or qualities they posses...I can not find any. So I'm trying another tactic. Staying far away from this individual and biting my tongue...yeah we'll see how long that lasts.....I'll keep you informed.


Anyway I was sitting in class (independent study. Best. Class. Ever) and this song came up on pandora. I've heard it before, but I love it and think it's adorable. So here it is...enjoy!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d8TjqNinbn0. Yeah I know it's just a link, but LISTEN. It's such a cute song!

Disney Movies

Sometimes I wish life was like a Disney movie. Go ahead judge here. If life were like a Disney movie there would be a lot more singing...I think I could handle that.

Warning this post is more of a rant then anything else so if you would like to stop reading feel free. If you keep reading though, don't say I didn't warn you.

School:

    That seems to be the number one thing that I love to rant about maybe because I'm so sick of it. I'm tired of being asked all the time if my major is real. "If my major isn't real, why is there a WHOLE department devoted to it?" I believe those were the last freak out words I used on some unexpectant soul. His reposense? "Who knew red heads could be so mean!" Oops. I guess I'm just a little touchy sometimes about my major. Let's get a few things out of the way though.

1. I enjoy my major classes.
2. Yes, I still am not sure what in the world I'm going to do with it besides tell you why you do certain things.
3. Again, I'm aware I can't make a whole lot of money doing it.


Sigma:

   I haven't really said anything about Sigma lately...it's still is great, but of course like all things it has moments where I'm really confused about what just happened or I don't even know why I show up sometimes.
Part of the reason I don't enjoy going is I hear some of the things the girls talk about and I just want to scream. It's like high school all over again. I don't need a sequel to my high school years, but thanks for asking. Maybe I need to learn to be a tad more tolerant of people's personalities...heaven knows I've had my fair share of people who didn't appreciate mine. Ah...sometimes it's just really hard....oh well...I guess I've just got to learn to suck it up.

Church:

    I'm sure you all are wondering "what could she possibly have to say about church?" Well let me enlighten you. I love going to church. Love it. I don't always love the people though. I've lost track of how many times I've been asked if I was planning on getting married anytime soon. Yeah, let me jump on that because I have sooo many options I just have to pick one. Syke! Seriously I'm 22 I have PLENTY of time to get married, but I guess because I wasn't eager to get married when I was 18 being 22 and unmarried makes me a spinster? Eh whatever. The church is true...sometimes though the people are a little weird.


Sometimes things happen in my life where I just sit at the pothole I tripped over and wonder why it was placed in my path. The latest pothole (granted it's only been a day) I think I'm going to be stuck on for a little while. This one was big, big enough to twist my ankle, hit my head and then forget which way was up. I know I'll get over it, but right now it's a little too raw and I have some many things running through my head that I don't know if I'd be able to get them out and actually make it make any sense. Who knows I'll figure it out eventually, but for right now I just want to be mad/hurt.


I didn't sleep like at all last night so if this make no sense at least you know it's due to lack of sleep.

Why yes Professor I am paying attention....

Well sort of. :) I tend to only do this when I'm extremely bored or just can't focus in class. Today is one of those days. I can not get my brain to wrap around some of the ideas (crazy ideas) my professor is discussing. Needless to say I tuned out and started doing this.

Life sure has been crazy lately, but a good crazy. The besties and I have been discussing some things that would change our lives. Haha nothing dramatic, although I totally made it sound that way. Oops!
We've been talking about moving out for a little while and now we've made it our goal to have an apartment by the end of the year. It's exciting to take some steps toward being on my own, but at the same time it's a little scary. It will be good though...I couldn't ask for better people to room with.

Conference weekend has come and gone. I must say I love conference so much! I had a lot of things that I was trying to come to terms with or find the answers to and every single thing was hit during conference. Those men and women are truly inspired. My favorite talk though was from Elder Scott. I love to hear that man talk about his wife. It's so sweet that you can still see just how much he loves her still. I know everyone gets tired of the marriage talks, but his was one of the best. I may or may not have started tearing up when he said that even if we feel like things are not possible...all things are possible through our Father in Heaven. I just loved his talk so much. I feel a lot better after conference and like I'm ready to face whatever life has in store for me with the sure knowlegde that I am a daughter of God and He loves me.

I must admit it's times like this though when I really miss one of my dear friends who is serving a mission. I miss just having random conversations and sometimes very serious conversations. Although with her letters she still makes me see things that I haven't even thought of and I find a lot of strength in her letters. I'm extremely grateful for those. They always seem to come at the right times, even though you can't see this for a while thanks Jess.

Well that was an hour and half well spent. Class is over now. YAY!

November....Please, please, please HURRY!

Love Never Dies. Yo Andrew Lloyd Webber this is your best idea EVER! So seriously, November please hurry or if anyone is feeling like they want to be extremely nice and pay for me to go see this in London...I would love you forever.

Katie, thanks for telling me about this. Soundtrack downloaded. Songs stuck in my head. Yep, I fell in love with this. :D

Blunt Much?

Please tell me that Spring Break is making it's wonderful return soon. I'm so tired of school this semester. I can't figure out why. I do have some pretty awesome classes, how can you beat independent study where you listen to the boys try to be the next Justin Bieber...answer you can't. For some reason though I've lost all my motivation to wake up and go to class. I must say though when I don't show up to one of my classes it sparks some pretty entertaining texts from my dear friend A. "Kelcey, the aliens have attacked Blake's class, so as a last ditch effort before I'm dragged off to some far away planet...stay in school and um come back? I sort of miss you and watching Harry Potter with you" He totally knows how to make my day.

A did accuse me the other day of being waaaayyyyy too blunt. I guess that's a bad thing? No, just kidding, I know it's a bad thing, but sometimes I can't help it. I hate when people beat around the bush if I hate when it's done to me so why in the world would I do it to someone else? Whatever. I had someone be really blunt with me about something I was being extremely ridiculous about. I can't even be mad at him for it. He did it because we're friends and not to hurt me (although it sort of stung, like getting slapped or more like ripping that stubborn band aid off.) I totally needed someone to force me to see some sort of reality. I can't even be anything except grateful, he saved me many nights of being super confused. So thanks. You know who you are and you rock :)

Can I just say that I hate asking a guy out. Apparently I'm old fashion and I'd rather wait until someone finds me interesting enough to ask out. A keeps telling me to step out of my box. (Did I mention that AJ is totally like the big brother I never got?) He always says that I can't be a wallflower and expect to dance everytime. So being the pain that he is, he's challenged me to talk to at least one boy a day. Wow, this is going to be a lllllooooonnnngggg year ( A and I have classes together until we graduate woo).

Bleh. It's so late. I'm going to bed so I can actually function tomorrow. Peace out girl scout.

Seriously?

Two weeks into the semester and I actually really love every single one of my classes, well except math, but who loves that? My classes are as follows: Stats, Gender in America, British Literature, Western Civilization from the Renaissance to the 20th century, Psychology, Intermountain West. Yes, two sociology classes and psychology...I love it.

As for being twenty-five days into a brand new year I guess it's time to make a list of all the things I'd like to accomplish before it's all over.

• Learn Italian.
• Visit Carolina and Clarice since I haven't seen them in sixteen years.
• Stop being so shy. (this is the goal every year and it never works out.)
• Take my endowments out.
• Find Charade.
• Pick Behavioral Analysis or Marriage Counseling. (I know it's a strange combination.)
• Go skydiving. (this one is going to take FOREVER)
• Re-learn the Waltz.
• Be in a play or two.

I think that's a good list and all very possible this year, except maybe skydiving...that really is going to take the entire year. I hate heights, but it's a great way of getting over that fear. :)

Jess leaves for her mission tomorrow. :( Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely excited for her, but it stinks I won't see her all the time now. She'll be a great missionary and the people she teaches are incredibly lucky to get her for eighteen months. I know I'm incredibly lucky to have her as a friend.

Go get 'em Sister Myers

Sitting in stats yesterday my teacher was making up a problem for us to figure out and he said that in the United States there are fifty-three states...seriously? I think I should be worried.

Days like this I wish the sun wouldn't set

I'm kind of in love with this song. It's amazing. It's also been stuck in my head for two weeks.
Enjoy. :)

Between the lines

Monday is fast approaching. I wish it was still December. I'm not ready to start school again. I went a little crazy and took a full load this semester, in a way it's a good thing I'll be done faster, but who in their right mind would do that to themselves? Gah. Nothing I can do about it now. Tuition=paid. Books=bought. Here we go. I also have to say that my math class will be the only class that I probably won't do that fantastic in...I hate math. As long as I can add, subtract, multiply and divide I think I'm good. Bleh. Stats...not looking forward to you at all. Stats=death.


Listening, it's kind of a big part of my job. I listen to people complain about rates, fees, interest, their husbands, kids etc. Yet when I say something (you'd think what I have to say is semi-important...I mean I am playing with money on their credit cards) no one listens. I don't get it. People call me and ask for answers...when the answer is given they don't listen. It's very irritating. So I've sort of taken up counting to five before I answer anyone. It's silly I know, but it's also a lot better than getting angry with people and having a pow-wow with my boss.


Reading between the lines. Some people are incredibly good at it...others not so much. Or maybe they just choose to ignore what you're really trying to say. There's one person that I can't just come right out and say what I'd like to so sticking with hoping he'll just pick up on what I'm trying to say. Can't say that so far that's worked out to well for me. I guess when someone doesn't respond they either have nothing to say or get what you are trying to say and think that no response is better than a mean one. Apparently I need help, although some of you have known this for a while, it's recently been brought to my attention. I guess I'm special when it comes to talking to a certain person. Nothing ever comes out right and I end up looking really really stupid. Case in point I get so nervous talking to him that instead of just coming right out and asking him out, I beat around the bush and hope that he can just read between the lines of "we should hang out sometime" to what I'm really trying to say. I guess things only go right in a Taylor Swift song. Too bad. So in case you're reading this, when I ask you to hang out it's my weird way of asking you out on date. It'd be nice if you would respond. I think you fall under the category of ignoring what I'm trying to say. Rude.


On a side note I totally want glasses like Ben Folds. They're pretty stinking cool. I seriously want them. Also who ordered the snow? Don't order more. Please and Thank you. :)